Misunderstandings and Panics…
Hello, wonderful people!
Back in the writing game this week. I wanted to share about the past few months. It’s been around six months since I stopped writing regularly. I am going to be honest with you all, I was not inspired. The content I put out for you is something I value, and it is not something I want to just randomly throw out there. I do not know what I am going to do with Rethink next. We will see. I urge you to stay along for the journey though.
My Trial and the Lesson God Tauht Me
Let me tell you about a trial I had last week, and the important lessons I learned form it.
It is hard for me to want to talk about. I will admit to you some of the areas I am a weak person. As of now, only the Lord, the devil, myself, and maybe two other people know this. The Lord alone knows the fullness of my weak point, and He is working on it with me. My beautiful and most favorite people, I struggle with my thoughts. It is something that is really personal. Thoughts are something between you and God alone unless you decide to share them. Today, I am sharing mine with you.
One of the biggest struggles with my flesh is my thoughts. It hits in waves as well. Sometimes, I am perfectly fine, and other times, I am on my knees in prayer from the inner pain it brings me.
I had heard this verse (specifically the bolded part), and I felt as if I lost control of my thoughts.
“And the scribes who came down from Jerusalem were saying, “He is possessed by Beelzebul,” and “by the prince of demons he casts out the demons.” And he called them to him and said to them in parables, “How can Satan cast out Satan? If a kingdom is divided against itself, that kingdom cannot stand. And if a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. And if Satan has risen up against himself and is divided, he cannot stand, but is coming to an end. But no one can enter a strong man’s house and plunder his goods, unless he first binds the strong man. Then indeed he may plunder his house. “Truly, I say to you, all sins will be forgiven the children of man, and whatever blasphemies they utter, but whoever blasphemes against the Holy Spirit never has forgiveness, but is guilty of an eternal sin” — for they were saying, “He has an unclean spirit.””
Mark 3:22-30 ESV
My head decided to jump straight into thinking “oh, you know better than God” and “why would you need Him”. These are two things, that at my core, I do not believe (trust me, I have learned the hard way). They are things that I did not even want to be thinking. There was a little voice saying that, and the bigger part of me was yelling internally at the voice, “Get out, get out.”
My head immediately went into panic mode later when I realized the verse mentioned all who blaspheme the Lord will be guilty of a sin that lasts forever. That is not a settling thought for anyone. I was in a frantic emotional turmoil over this. In the middle of my freaking out, I did not clearly think about the context of the verse. I realized that later when asking three of my mentors about this verse.
This is something that happens so often to many of us. We take things out of context and that completely changes the way the verse is interpreted. It is our ignorance and haste that changes the meaning of the original passage. First, I talked to my mom about this, and her answer calmed me for the time being. She brought it to light who God is. God is a loving God, and he wants us in his presence. He also works by only bringing piece. She mentioned to me this idea. She said, “How many times do we say we know better than God or don’t need him?”
Our human nature makes us want to do things alone or think that we can do them better than God. That is basically what my head was jumping to. There was a voice that I know was not the Holy Spirit speaking negative words into my mind. My mom did also mention that I was misunderstanding the context of the verse, thus making me want to fully understand it in its correct context.
The next person I asked about this was my Bible teacher. He has years of experience teaching and in ministry, and I trust his opinion. I was confident in asking him because I knew he would give an honest and thorough response. He directed me back to the definition of the word blasphemy in the Greek, “‘Claiming you have the power or ability of _______’ or that ‘you don’t need ___________, because you are capable on your own to take care of the issue.’” My Bible teacher also went on to tell me the context of the actual verse. The verse in Mark is really talking about the spirit in Jesus. The leaders and people of the church were saying that it was Jesus who had an evil spirit in him because only the devil could cast demons out of himself. They accused Jesus of having an unclean spirit.
I learned through this trial that God always comes through. In my worry, he taught me a few lessons. I learned that people and your mind will try to trick you. Look at all the evidence before jumping to a hasty decision. I also learned that God always leads us back to him. I knew he would get me through this testing of my mind. Another thing I learned is that you have power to speak over the devil and his demons. They have to listen because God has more authority than they do (James 2:19 and 1 Jn. 4:4). This is a lesson that I learned after praying to God to test me. Fortunate enough for me, this time it was a shorter test, but I have had several that have been for a more extensive period of time.
God will always have your back. He will always speak again. Sometimes, we just have to stop and look a little closer.
I have included the links to two wonderful songs that I haev really touched me this week. I hope that you enjoy them and get some spiritual encouragement!